MISSING MY THOIBEE

I've never felt a hurt like this where it feels as though someone had stuck a knife through my heart. I can barely breath realising that I can't hold you, hug you, and kiss you right now. The fact that you are not within a distance to me that I can easily reach, hurts. I've missed you so badly the moment i cut your calls. I choked on tears and could not manage to breathe. I do not know how I am going to manage these few days without you.

I love you so much that neither words nor actions could express my feelings for you. I could spend the rest of my life describing how much I love you and it still would not come close to the way I really feel. I could die for you and it still could not possibly show my love and feelings for you in proportion to which I feel them.

Now my worst fears, my life is being controlled, have become a reality.Its dancing in the rythm of you heartbeats. I feel sick, I tremble, I cannot breathe, and tears constantly blur my vision. Without you I feel alone and cold. I feel so small and helpless. You cave my life, you made my whole and without you, I am nothing. I am afraid that I will miss the way you feel, the way you taste, and your smell. The little things that I love so much, I am afraid that I will long them. And I do not want to, I so do not want to.But you know i m addicted.

Now I know why we are here. I know why we live. It's because once you find someone you love and care for so dearly, where you would give up anything and everything for them, you found purpose in your life that makes it worth living. You are my purpose and I do not know what to do without you. How a few hours could change a life! I continue to cry, and I will continue for a long time, and when my eyes cease to produce more tears, my heart will continue to cry for you every day, forever, because I will think of you every day, every hour, every second within a minute. I do not think I would prevent thatif I wanted to. I cannot stop my heart from crying crimson tears of blood. And it does bleed. It bleeds because of the pain I feel in missing you. I know that I will never really lose you because you will always be in my heart, but that does not stop me from missing you. And feeling desperate with the need to hug and kiss you and be in your arms. That is where I wish I could stay forever, in your arms. My heart beats for you now and forever.when I was talking to you, it beat happily, hopefully, but now it beats longingly. Longing to have you with me, and that longing cannot be easily or quickly smothered, and I do not want to smother it. You will always have a permanent place in my heart. I will never forget you, How could I? I need you more than anything. You are my life support.

Although I hate that we are being torn apart from one another, I will always be happy for we meet and we happen to come close to each other and m happy for loving you so much.i wil cherish the time I talked with you. I will treasure each moment in my heart and be thankful for the little, precious time we had together and wil make it a hope while waiting for you to be mine forevr. I love you so much, so very much and I always will. Please do not forget that. It is important to me that you never forget that.

I miss you so much. And I know that it is only going to get worse with time, not better. I do not know if my heart will ever heal. It has been shattered too badly. God, I love you. I miss you so much. My life was lonely and cold. When I meet you, you caused the loneliness to vanish and melted the cold with your warmth and love. I can never repay the feeling you gave me with your love or the happiness you bring me, but I can, and will, love you with all my heart forever.

These words have not been written down in any particular order so it might be hard for you to understand what I am trying to say, but know this at least… without you, I feel hollow and unfinished. You complete me. I need you. I love you more
than anything … more than myself.